Hi jbartram_7

I did also respond to your post on the OCD/Anxiety forum, but am posting here again as it really sounds like you would benefit from our Psych Central forums, as there are more members there who may be able to support you and understand some of the things you experience. Mental Health is the primary focus there. They also have chat sessions with psychologists and a lot more.

Here's the link to the PC forums. You will need to re-register there, but you can use the same info as here.
Forums at Psych Central

Hope this proves helpful to you in your quest for answers