you are wonderful and you are some sort of bipolar which makes you more special. Our suffering makes us so caring for others. It is all right if you are unfixable. you are part of the grand plan. You just have to learn to be kinder to yourself and set reasonable expectations. A little while ago a prescription worked for a few days and it made me feel normal and made me realize how being bipolar carries such a weight on the shoulders. It really is hard dealing with that weight and we really have to try to be gentle with ourselves.
so fondly,
bobby