today was one of my roughest days and the night before. I was really losing it. I was so frustrated. I have been obsessed with death and worry what would happen to my kitties. the depression, irritability and anxiety are so painful and make me feel crazy. My printer hasn't been working but Robert wrote he will come over sometime this weekend and try to fix it. Now my tv isn't working again.This morning a technician will come over again.
I feel so lousy and fat. I am terrified of going outside. Late last night I wrote to one of doctors and didn't know what to do. I think if I caught the virus it would kill me because of my age,diabetes ,etc.
all these pleasant thoughts. rats.right now it feels hopeless. I am frustrated by
eyesight. can you believe i just made a cup of coffee.
marci was here today and was a saint.