Hi, GeeLuv! It's so nice to hear from you! Actually, I'm gone a lot, too. Nevertheless, I wonder about you & hope you're ok. I don't have the same kinds of problems that you have, but it matters to me what you are dealing with. I'm sorry I don't have your openness. I wish I could be that way. That's one of my goals, to be willing to open up more & share the way you do. It's so helpful to have role models to help guide us closed-up types. I sometimes imagine feeling so comfortable & safe. You are a breath of fresh air, as the saying goes. I hope with all my heart that the things you wish for are coming true! Take care GeeLuv. Hugs & love to you!!