Think of all your blessings! Think Hard. I feel so badly that you are hurting yourself so badly. I think I remember that the step program won't help. Jeff doesn't seem to help you. I can be a compulsive eater and right now I did it again. I was a compuslvie smoker but it was only tell I couldn't afford it did I stop. Once I gave it up for 18 years. you can afford to drink. Poor Bizi. Maybe if I start praying hard for you.
love you and very worried!
bobby