ello (Mark from Idaho or anyone)

I need advice because I am terrified.

Bit of history first:

2008: 21 years old I had my first concussion. During boxing practice. Ko'd by an idiot thug coach. I recovered quickly. No lasting effects.

March 2017: 29 years old. I had my second concussion during practice. This time it was after several moderate blows to the head during practice over many years one night I was sparing as usual and just like that, pressure in the head and dizziness after a moderate punch. Didn't lose consciousness.

I went to doctors and neurologists and had all the usual useless mri and ct scans which i now know don't show anything to do with concussions and was basically left alone by useless, clueless health "professionals" to figure it out by myself.

For the next 3 and a half years. I struggled and suffered physically and mentally with head pressure and dizziness. Gradually made some improvements but was never 100 percent again.

My neurology team said they felt it could be a dysautonima or neurotalk vascular coupling issue. Nervous system having trouble regulating with the blood flow thus causing symptoms like exercise intolerance. I started sub symptom threshold protocol to tolerate some exercise again.

After years of suffering dyautonima/head pressure that can't be explained by anyone (who the hell knows)I got back to about 85 percent the old me. Could push myself with moderate to hard level exercise without too many issues I would occasionally get reoccurrance of symptoms whenever i received any small to moderate bump or hit to the head. I began to train myself not to panic and improved in this area of my problem too.

1 month ago I thought I lost something really important and couldn't sleep properly for a month. It caused me no end of stress and I became obsessed. I had headaches etc. It was horrible.

Fast forward to 14th January, last week. I was lying on the floor minding my own business when my little 2 year old boy dropped himself on me. His body (tummy/chest) hit my head. It didn't hurt, I got up and felt very angry and dizzy and the dizziness got worse for a few days.

Then they calmed down, but yesterday my boy was playing with me, he ran head first into my upper back just below my neck/head area. I got really tired for the rest of the day.

I know this is asked frequently here but is this an anxiety/fear response? Or more concussions?

Ive worked so damn hard to avoid head contacts.

From Len