Hi!

Before i forget, just wanted to say that. I'm struggling with what to say/where to even begin when i think about visiting here. I'm stressed and my mind is in 10 different places at a time. Theres so much i want to do and not enough time in the day!

And then i get distracted on top of it all, losing even more time. :'(

I still need to schedule my doctor appointment (for these mental health concerns, but also for refills on my thyroid meds and just basic followup). I actually spoke to Donna yesterday and said ive been scared/distracted/putting off making the call, but i know i NEED to. So, hopefully tomorrow. But i also have a dentist appointment (cleaning) this Wednesday and im half nervous about this because last time, i was recommended i check in with a specialist about my wisdom teeth (yea, i still have them at almost 40yrs. And they are beginning to breach the gumline. Luckily no pain, yet, but still concerning). And i havent done that yet. Mostly cuz H told me to wait until the new year/Covid clears up some. Well...yeah. idk

So that is that! On top of all that, I'm also overdue for a gynecological checkup. Been putting that off, because i hate the travel required to get there.

If you can't tell, i have some mild anxiety about setting up and getting to all of these things. And being on lockdown/"lockdown" for a year has really gotten me out of practice...oh, and i get flipping nervous making calls in front of H. Most of the time he's too busy working, but then i also dont want to make noise and distract him. *facepalms*