Bizi,

I wouldn't say im actively fighting with h. It's more or less him making snarky remarks about how i need to fix myself or gets frustrated and claims I'll never change. Like he'll tell me all these things i SHOULD do for days and then out of the blue, when it finally sinks in, he'll be like "oh you'll never change". As if that's any confidence! So i get depressed and the situation worsens... although, i did say that i have to pump myself up and i do that. I do keep trying, but you know, there is still that moment of "oh why do i even try?! He'll never be happy!" And those are the times when i "act out", like PURPOSELY stay up late or sleep all day or do chores late... but usually i need things done too, so hard to neglect for too long. Almost always too late for him though. Like, thats how it feels. It's not always true. And some rare occasions, he'll say something nice.