I am so angry but also depressed right now. H is just getting on my last nerve. I ask him not to do something and he does it anyway! It really hurts why he just doesn't care one iota about my feelings or needs any more. 😢

In other news, i scheduled a doc appointment, but it's not until June and I worry about my darn menstrual cramps complicating it. Meh! It's too far off in the future to know for sure, but just gives me anxiety. It's why i put off these calls, but i know that doesnt make sense. Anyway...

So yea, like im so stressed or anxious and turned off by H lately and it's coming out physically. I'm...not even sure how to explain it. But like my inside feelings are making me sick on the outside. And i blame H. I know part of it is my ... ugh im just so upset with him, so disappointed right now, i can't fault myself this time. I'm trying and he just keeps picking away at me intentional or not (i think it's both honestly). I am just sick!

Ok well, ill now read the comments.