something may be going wrong with my computer. i bought a screen door to replace the broken one. it came yesterday and i don't know if is going to fit. the super helped me. like a fool i said i would pay 150 to install it. if it fits it looks like that is too much money. i tormented myself most of the day. finally it hit me how self critical am and i am not compassionate, show forgiveness or love to myself. if it doesn't work out then at least i will get a lot of help from my two therapists and the pastoral intern to work on these issues. my parents were very critical of me from the age of 11 and my dead sister used to call me a fool and hardly had anything to do with me. top this all with being bipolar and not aware of it until my late fifties.
i think there is hope and hopefully i can control my binging.
love
bobby