Hi. I'm sorry I'm late to respond. Thanks I'm hanging in there and trying to stay in the moment which is not my strong point. Anyhow as for the mom issue I know it may not change things but still using your voice and saying how you feel. Its not good to keep it bottled. I'm in therapy for myself and have you thought about it? I'm now looking into biofeedback which I did when at the pain program at Cleveland clinic which was so helpful for me. I have such anxiety and found it really helped me calm down. As for friends I can relate. All my friends are running around and I feel left out and behind. They don't understand the mental toll this takes too. I think people forget what even a simple phone call means. Is there something you can do for you to lift your spirtis? I know it doesn't take away from what your going through but any mental lift can make things a little better. Hang in there and if you want an email buddy I'm here.