i can't fall asleep. I don't know why i am so shocked. she was the only person in this building that i would do things with before the virus. she was a very private woman an a year older than me. i didn't have anything to do with her when i moved in. she was an alcoholic and not friendly. she lived with twin who later went back to sweden. cecilia also smoked and then got throat cancer. she stopped drinking and smoking. she had been given a fifty fifty chance the first time.
this time she said she left me a message which i never got. she called me later and said they found a cancerous tumor in her lung and she went through so much chemo and radiation. marci saw her the beginning of last week and said she seemed fine. i before tried to email her and call her but she didn't call or write me back.
i just feel so sad. i am praying a lot for her and i will so miss her. there are 8 apartments on the floor and two of them are used as second homes. i am not friendly anymore with my next door neighbor who i helped a lot using the computer. when she got a printer finally she was superficially nice to me because she didn't need my help anymore.
a month or two ago i had gone to the dentist and came home and had trouble with my balance. i was on the floor and and she was in the hall i asked her if she would unlock my door, she said go downstairs and have the porter come up and do it. i repeated for her to unlock my door. she did and i got up and held on to my walker and asked her to open the door. she just opened it a little. then i said open more. she did. i guess she is heartless.