so sorry for your loss. i can't cry. one of the reasons i stopped going to the senior center was because a lot of people were in their eighties so there were a lot of deaths. i had a lot of deaths when i was in my thirties. a best wonderful friend died of leukemia. two killed themselves. i had to run home when sharon died of leukemia. i just couldn't handle it. i was told she had aplastic anemia. such an incredibly kind and so wonderful.
i think about death a lot. i can't cry. i just feel the pain and can't release it.
love
bobby