can you fool yourself and just have one without the vodka and extra tobasco
or can you ask the server if they have any great tasting beverage that doesn't have alcohol in it? how about nonalcohol beer. Cecilia who was an alcoholic but stopped drinking after her throat cancer always ordered that non alcoholic beer. i can't remember if it was St .Paulis She really liked it and found it was a great substitute.
i think at this point you are so motivated which is fantastic that it will just be a little hoop that you will.fly over. my father was an alcoholic probably bipolar
2 and he stopped drinking without a problem in his sixties.
love
bobby with fingers crossed