i guess we both have very difficult struggles which we can't overcome. i wonder if you have severe underlying depression and are suffering. so much and mask it with enjoying excess drinking so much. when you wrote how good it was you made me feel so sad. we love you. It sounds as if jeff is blind and an enabler and doesn't seem to care about your health. We do .I am so angry at Jeff. have you ever thought of going to rehab??. alcohol for you is poison no matter how good it tastes and makes you feel. You can't do it by yourself and must be torturing yourself. How much are you suffering? Finally when my father stopped drinking i asked why did he drink. He simply said it made him feel good. I guess he didn't care how he destroyed my childhood and only cared about himself.He never got into an accident with his frequent drunk driving. His tolerance was low so he got drunk fast. It didn't affect his health. I am so worried of your long term health.
Love you and so worried.
bobby

I hated to write this but i love you.