thank you so much. after i wrote it i felt like dying. I think my therapist found a solution. He thought I should have a Hebrew name and i think of the names he gave was daughter of Zion. He said that would free me from my parents. interesting right/ He didn't like that i had a burial plot between my mother and father. I sent him the thing you read.. He also thinks I have a guardian angel.
love
bobby

Bat-Tziyon בת ציון
Bat-Tziyon means "daughter of Zion," or "daughter of excellence." (variant spellings: Bat-Tzion, Bat-zion)