hello ladies!
been trying to read a bit over the last few days.
trying to work it in. we'll see.

i've been in therapy and psychiatry since the last time I was here but
i'm kinda getting off therapy for the time being because it was no longer helping
and i'm just so busy.

I need help though. my therapist kept saying in addition to the bipolar she still thinks
it's ADHD. And she kept saying things aren't my fault like as if my brain just works a certain way
i wish she could help me tap into the good things about me

sadly, my husband (H) is of no support when it comes to mental health.
that is why i'm not making much progress. It's never going to be good enough for him...
except he's been quiet lately, which could mean things are ok. idk. maybe not. maybe he's holding it in.
maybe i need to ask him again.
i'm so tired!

i'm so tired, it takes so much out of me every day just to think
think of what to do and what needs to be done and then mustering the will to get it done.

anywhoo, that's me and why it's so hard to get here. too mental and I want to be a part of everything and anything that helps me
i hide away in twitter pics, gifs, and in the music
i do pray too, but admit i could do more. hard to focus though. i get restless. sighhh