there is strength in fragility. or something like that. It's similar to being courageous in times of fear. True strength is not in our muscles, so to speak.
Honestly, I need to be reminded of this because I've an autoimmune disorder and it's only by the mercy of God that I'm able to do what I do, but I do feel weak at times.
wish i had a kitty too, but alas, I must enjoy them on the internet and through my parents. I enjoy watching cat videos online. that's a lot of my social media content.

as for your family, yes it's hard because it's family. But even if you find forgiveness, even if you pray for good things for them, it doesn't mean you forget or condone their unpleasant behaviors. We must let go of the burden they have on us.
It's a lot harder if you live with them though, but if you don't you can just limit your time with them to holidays or something. But yes, we also must pray for our enemies, because we never know if they'll change in the future for God's sake. <3