Everytime I collect another diagnosis I am struck that many who have "fill in the blank" take their own lives. My father told me that if his health got too bad and he became a burden that he would just will himself dead. I did not believe he could do it, but when he decided his time here was up, refusing food, drink, and medical care was his quick path out (at 99 it took him less than 3 days). I still can't believe he left us. COVID made him feel like a burden because he understood the risks we took to get him care at the end. I hate this pandemic.