oh no, Bizi!
I can only imagine. I mean, I'm forgetting some things, but I think my mind is just overwhelmed. i'm not sure. or it's ADHD
but sometimes even my H gets frustrated with me for forgetting...like I got distracted and left the stove on again tonight eek!
it can be scary. I'm sorry you hate those words. I'm sure it brings a lot of anxiety too. *hugs*