I repeat myself because I'm in extreme pain. I talk a lot, and way too much.
I wake up very dizzy in different environments I stay the night at.
or in my own house.
I have trouble sleeping at night.
I wake up in very early in the mornings.
I don't rest, I don't sleep, I don't sleep in, I don't take naps. I only get 6hrs, less asleep at night.
I cannot get on my phone, tablet, laptop, I cannot read a book, do things I use to do that makes me happy, and relaxes me.
I don't even get a chance to look at my phone, because its left behind ''dead'', and haven't been looking at the time of the day, and the date of the day.
And that's not good at all.
I jerk back and forth, and have these ''tics'', and my eyes roll back.
Extreme head aches. I lost my ability to shed tears and cry. Because of it.

I'm in extreme pain, it makes me repeat myself, go 'crazy', talk about the same subject for many hours, get stuck on things, go on and on about things.
Makes me talk waaaay toooo much.
Constantly.

Not rest at all.

Then, I'll start ''crying'',
and acting like a child.
If I go to public places, because of being in that much pain.
I cannot handle large crowds anymore, be around people anymore.
Afraid because of my nerve damage, that people will just look at me like I'm nuts and crazy and kick me out of the store.
Because of being in extreme pain.

And when I wash my hands, hygiene routine,
I don't react to hot water at all.

So I turn it down in the middle; lukewarm.

Because my nerve is so damaged messed up,
I'm unable to, stop talking, I'm very annoying.
I upset loved ones around me, and get onto me about things.
Its like my brain suddenly is just challenged now.
I've been tested for autism and all this stuff.
Have nothing wrong with me I'm normal.
I just have nerve impairment.
My nerve impairment, makes me repeat myself like this--

''I repeat myself.''[5x more]
''I repeat myself'' [5x more]

And I'll start crying....
but I won't cry, like shed tears cry, I won't cry normal like I use to.
I get real loud now, and cannot help it at all.
I'm learning how to control it.

But;

I cannot control it.

I cannot control that my trigeminal nerve makes me embarrass myself,
repeat myself, talk too much.

How would I ever be understood with this disability I have, that makes me repeat myself and talk waaaay tooo much. Makes everyone reject me, not want to talk to me, makes people scared of me afraid of me. I cannot have a social life, nothing. I will never see myself get married, nothing. Not even have friends.
My siblings won't interact; talk to me at all.
People think I'm nut's and I'm not.
I have an invisible disability that nobody sees and understands that I'm in extreme pain, nobody just see it.
I get mistaken as autism.
And I'm not.
Does anyone with trigeminal nerve damage repeat themselves, and talk too much and how to control it? Why is it so hard to control?

How do I control my nerve?