I'm really so sorry. How do you think your mom and family could help you more? Could you try to ask them to do that for you? I mean in physical and mental support? I think for me and sometimes it doesn't work but telling people my needs and not feeling bad for that. I often fear hurting people's feelings but then I get hurt in the long run. It doesn't mean your not appreciative or love you family because you say what is nothering you. You have so much going on and I'm sure if you were in there shoes you would want to help in the best way you could. I know things with health care are different out of the us. I used to suffer from an eating disorder and the girls I knew out of states had a real hard time finding care and in a timely matter. This may not be possible but is there a way you can send your health records to places in US that may be able to help you more? Ok I'm so clueless but what holiday is coming up for you? Well I'm sending thoughts your way.