last night i talked with my 29 year old Sam. as i have said he grew up with a bipolar 2 mother and his mother and father divorced when he was seven. they were always fighting. he doesn't think he wants to marry and rather devote himself to his career as a corporate lawyer. afterwards i wound up really depressed. i had opportunities to marry but they would have been such disasters. besides bipolar 2 i have always been independent and also it would have so awful to pass bipolar on to a child. i guess i was lucky even though i missed out so much.