Okay in that post I had gotten through page 1, and now page 2.

I just wanted to let you know that. I find you have a very intriguing
life and have done some very good growing.

I also find you refreshing and think you are doing great. As most in
this page know I'm not bi-polar but I have anxiety. I have lots of
family members with bi-polar, anxiety and depression.

#1 son is bi-polar, and a few other things. I can't even begin to give
his whole thought to list. He is now 40, had a very rough childhood
with his disorders. At the time he was a child bi-polar wasn't diagnosed
in kids, so his was lots of other things. But the big one was intermittent
explosive disorder, conduct disorder, depression, add at 16 and less.

He was on so many meds, and it was with lots of thought and prayers
and hope that one days we would find the right combo of medications
that he survived. He spent some time around the age of 16 in a school
for boys after an juvenile detention center, so my other two children
would be safe and myself and husband. But honestly this is also the
reason he is alive and well today. It turned out we met the psychiatrist
that diagnosed the intermittent and found the drugs that worked.
When he was allowed to leave, I even had him court ordered to stay with
that doctor because it was the only way she could keep him.
Because we would have to travel even further to try new doctors. I had been to all in a 90 mile radius already. Refusing to go back. She would give him
an after school time and all. He ended up passing the exit exam and graduating high school because of the program and the help that they gave him. And coffee of all things.

This is my oldest, and he went through more things, and has little if any memory day to day. Hour to hour, or minute to minute. So much so that I make sure he gets his once a month shot of medicine. And I am the one that sets up his appointments reminders by taking the calls. And making sure he goes with his girlfriend if the three of us didn't do it together he wouldn't
remember.

He is on SSDI, he did work for 10+ years, but it was an lead factory that he lost lots of weight and really we almost lost him. His disability got worse and he left work paranoid too. And ended up in trouble with law, and in the hospital too.

Donna