i think my major problems stem from not getting nurtured but rather be given the main role of caretaker when my father drunk. after that i became the family scapegoat. i think all the other stuff really isn't that important. maybe there is no help or hope.
the other night i talked with sam and he kept on saying how great it was that i went to an ivy league school. that really depressed me. i did not think the university of penn was a great school. if i graduated from Radcliffe i think that would meant something. i just feel so hopeless.

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