I cannot offer you any wisdom because my experiences have been along similar lines. I've been ill and isolated for 22 years. DX with narcolepsy I was beginning to get a handle on my nights and days around 2018 when for some odd reason, doctors now are tightening up the script pipeline and don't want to take me as a patient anymore. My sleep issues have ruined my health because I don't get enough deep sleep to restore my organs. I'm just biding my time until my time is up. You sound too young to give up, so I will lift you in good thoughts and hope. I must have been so foolish to believe in medicine to care.