Words of wisdom:

Take it one day at a time.

There is great value in the things you will learn only available during hardship. Seeing your challenges as opportunities for growth, can pacify the "why me?" thoughts? This means that time you feel that you "could or should be" doing other things is now available for that realm of contemplation, introspection, and such.

I have heard spiritual philosophies stating that physical ailments are catalysts for spiritual growth and that the physical ailment is brought about b/c that is the only way that one will search for greater understanding. From my own experiences, I will confirm that line of thought.

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