it is so f@#king hard to be bipolar and I have read that it get worse with age. I too am screwing up on medication and food and getting fatter. i wonder if i am now full blown diabetic.

wrote that i read 1/2 bipolar people suffer from drinking too much. the article didn't offer any solutions so i just feel badly for you and don't worry, now i won't ever get on your case but listen and maybe you shouldn't get on yours.
having james come to my house for p.t. does really help. he is my cheer leader. I really get down on myself big time with overwhelming feelings of hopelessness and self anger..
love,
bobby living in this crazy world