called the help line and told her all the problems I have been facing alone and at my age. She said I was very brave. That made me feel good.
Then had trouble with youtube playing.. already my nerves were strung out and my stomach ache with me all day but rebooted and it is now playing..
One stock keeps on crashing. oh well. One of my few friends got angry at me. i think the first in 50 years. I catastrophized. .A lot of bipolars do it. It might have been the result of my being the caretaker at a very young age when my father was drunk. Drunks shouldn't have children..