Hello stress_out_girl

Have you consulted with your doctor or any other health professional about this?
If things are that dire, then that really should be your first course of action.

Forum members have offered you support and information based on their own knowledge and experience, but that's all they can do. They can't really "help" in the way you are asking beyond that, and so seeing a professional to discuss the symptoms you are experiencing really would be best for your own peace of mind and health.