I posted here about a week ago on being on a binge, and trying to taper off the alcohol.

The Neuropathy was worse than ever.

I broke down and risked a hospital with no insurance.

I am on Librium and tapering down off that.

I really never want to drink again. But, I am REALLY hoping this is IT.

The hospital was afraid I had Pancreatitis, and said I had a fatty liver.

I have someone I talk to every day now.


HERE is my biggest fear.

My track record for the last decade has been, stay sober for two-three years, go on a three month bender. This has happened multiple times. I really want to do everything in my power for that to NEVER happen again.

I am 45 years old and do not want to die like my dad did with jaundice and cirrohis at 48.

My Neuropathy is a LOT better though , in just four days, the burning has stopped. But everytime I drink, it flares up.

I have an accountability partner, and a therapist. I am learning a lot about what my trigger is. Anxiety.

Sorry for rambling, I just am really nervous right now and want to stay sober for GOOD.

How did you guys stay away from it ?