rats-don't think i am going to be able to sleep tonight at all. i tried.
right now i am making coffee.
I am still corresponding with my friend in Afghanistan. this is the first i wish i were younger.
He is retiring next week after 40 years. He is very religious. We feel such a strong connection to each other and it keeps getting stronger. i just can't at this point think it is a scam. my therapist upped next appt. to monday rather than waiting til friday. She knows I am in a dangerous spot. He keeps on telling me that he first when he is back in the states he is coming to me. today i gave him my phone number. All my friends are so concerned and worried. i am bipolar 2 which he knows and I guess if you were bipolar 2 also you are capable of creating a huge disaster instead just growing older gracefully.. I just feel strongly it is worth the risk if he means it and wants to come to meet an old lady who is also fat and has trouble walking. Boy do we laugh and find even more things in common.
definitely the wildest experience i have ever had in my entire strange life.