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Join Date: Sep 2006
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Legendary
Join Date: Sep 2006
Posts: 10,984
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our daughters
It's a few days later so I'm hoping you're feeling a little better today???
These are really important feelings that you've written here Sculptor.
I too notice people see anger or frustration instead of the pain or other reasons behind it. It happens all the time. Scared can look like anger. Pain can make us angry and pain can make us scared.
I also think that a lot of our feeling scared and sounding "angry" to others is because it's such a very difficult place to be when we lose our independence and now need to rely on others more who perhaps may not always have the force or skills to move ahead the same as we would have.
All these years, to me, you have seemed such a strong person. When your daughters see you in pain and unable to navigate the system as you could in the past, then they probably get scared too.
I know my daughter tries to help, but there's a fine line. She's intuitive, so knows when to just let me be but sometimes she forgets and comes across a little "bossy" and you know, it's hard being older now and sick when you were always the one who held everyone together. It truly is hard and I feel for you and understand. I just hope that someone gets you some medical attention as you need it. I know my daughter is scared of losing me and we've done everything together now for so long ever since she came back home after university and living in the world for a while. It's BIG worries for her. Bigger than big. Bigger than her world can bear but most of the time she keeps it all tempered and balanced so I don't worry too much and get sicker. I must say though that I wouldn't be here today without her, she's such a blessing.
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