Hi all,

I am hoping this is a place where I can talk honestly and get helpful feedback. I was a passenger in an auto accident in january 2005. My wife and I were rear ended. I ended up with 3 herniations in L4-L5-S1. This resulted in back surgery. I now have, since the surgery, neuropathy in both legs and feet. I am in severe pain 24/7 and am on morphine, percocets, gabapentin, soma, prozac, and many other meds. I am currently still working full time but realistically am unable to perfrom my work. My brain just feels empty, I cannot think, like my attention span is about 30 seconds, my short term memory is awful. I am thinking of going on disability but don't know what I should do. Do I just stop going to work? Do I have to get my doctor to say I should stop going to work? Should I seek an attornet to assist me with all this? I keep having thoughts like what is the point of keeping going on. Is this just to see how much I can endure for how long? Why keep living or trying? What is the point? My doctors have said my condition is permanent with no chance of recovery. There has been no change for 2 years (actually, things have slowly gotten worse). I find myself taking extra pills for the pain (6 to 8 percocets in a day and extra morphine) and hoping I don't wake up. I also was recently diagnosed with type 2 diabetes and also have sleep apnea. I just want the pain to stop or I feel like quiting. I am sure many others have been through worse that I, so how do you keep going? Looking for wisdom.

Theo