It's times like this that I most miss Pter and his wise words. He would come riding in here and tell you that you are in a fight for your very life. He'd tell you that you need to charge at that black demon who has his death grip on you. He could say it so well, because he spent so many years fighting with it.

He would remind you that every moment you're alive you are winning...you are surviving.

I wish I could help you abbie...wish I knew more about your life, the circumstances that have dragged you into the pit. The important thing for you to know is that we care and like we said to BJ, there is no shame in asking for help.