Welcome to NeuroTalk. I'm so glad you found us, though I'm sorry for the reasons that brought you here. Yes, your story is a very familiar one for me and many others on these forums. Every bit of it. For me it's been five years now, and DaisyMay is right. You keep going because you have to. I sure hope you find some relief from your pain, and the obvious depression you are in. Good luck and my very best wishes...

Idealist