Hi Redtail
I'm sorry you are sad and in pain. I have myasthenia and fibro too. I don't know yet how to deal with the pains in the days that they arrive. One thing you know is that we must to rest. And rest more. (I know how this can be terrible for our mental health! - feeling sad, alone and hopeless are some of my shadows these days) Don't give up seeking for help. If you want, PM me.
A Hug
Bluestone