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Old 08-05-2007, 07:23 AM
daniella daniella is offline
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I often feel when people say hurtful things it is to cover up there own issues. Its still hurts but to realise its not your fault and you can't change others just use your voice. I suffered and still have issues like I said with ocd to where I would wash my hands till they blead,anxiety to where I would leave the house rarely,severe depression and once tried to commit suicide though would never again and of course the anorexia. Anyhow I know I must sound like a nut but its been almost a year and half of recovery and I can say I have thoughts,anxiety,depression but I work through it rather then it take over. I thing a huge factor of getting through is facing the fears and doing it over and over till it becomes a healthy habit. For the start of my recovery I would have to plan outings and a schedule to get out,a food plan to follow,and not allow myself to wash my hands or check things. Really I thought I would die at first there was days of crying,anger,shaking in fear but as I saw nothing" bad" happened it got easier. Everyone has fears in life but learning to not let it take over and hurt you mentally and physically.
Now onto the disability I do know that when I was in Ca in treatment for a mental issue I was a fgiven a form how I could not be fired from my job cause it was under the mental health act. I had friends there that had been on disability for like a year. I do think a lot is luck if you get that. I mean why would a 25 year old who though suffered from bulimia and severe depression get it but a 60 year old person with a long list of health issues not? I had friends who had months of coverage at the clinic and I had a to pay 1000 a day. The system is not fair. I really think it needs a major overhall.
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