Thanks Sue! There were periods of time when my parents and I did not talk because of my alcoholism...years in fact. I blamed them for so much of my problems. I felt left out and unloved when I was young. I went to an art councellor for my anxiety and panic attacks well after I got sober. We worked together for a long time. She would provoke me into panic attacks..these exhausted me but I got my ****out on the table and worked with her. I realized that no matter what, the past was the past. I saw that I needed to take responsibility for the things I had done wrong. When I got that out of the way, the resentment toward them was dramatically lessened! I began a new relationship with them. I love them so dearly. They are like my best friends. We spend much time catching up on lost time and we all enjoy making new memories and laughing together. There is nothing like family, is there?!