I toss and turn most of the night. I move all night. My legs move (RLS) and my legs kick and my arms hurt and my shoulders hurt and my neck hurts and where my biceps used to be... that hurts too. I arrange pillows in various positions when on my right side making sure I don't have my elbow bent in the wrong position and trying to make sure my right shoulder isn't bent too far under my body because if I sleep on it too much I can't use it at all the next day.

Then I toss and turn and wake up so many times and switch from that side to the other side and then finally try to sleep as I always used to sleep... on my tummy with my head to the right, but doing that for so many years must have done something to my neck too because now I can't lie on my tummy at all and look to the left. It actually makes me cry writing this cause it's all just too much for me. I need sleep and it's so painful just lying in the darn bed.

*sigh I guess you wish you didn't ask now.

Edited after posting to add:

OK, I'm over it. Not crying anymore. I'm still happy and still smiling, but I just wrote it as it is and it sucks basically.