My dear friends above are all absolutely right. It's your life, and everyone who wants to decide how you live it is wrong.

My biggest stress right now comes from one of my doctors, who celebrates how well I take care of myself and then calls me obsessive, who didn't want me to take pain pills prescribed by another doctor when I had bone-grinding arthritis and a hip replacement--started to write me down as addicted--then when I got off them in 30 days said that getting off them had backfired because I did it too fast, who tells me I'm better cognitively and then gives me diet tips--DIET TIPS--like I can't understand the program I'm on. Just yesterday I realized how much pressure is on me, and I don't have an idea in the world how to handle this doctor. I'll think of something... whenever....

Thanks cs and all.

Jaye