Sorry Steff. I didn't mean to offend. Some people seem to think that meds are the end all, be all for help and I just wanted to make sure that you know its not true. But it seems you are a veteran CPer just like me.
I too have lost friends and family and it stinks. But now you have us here! Feel free to talk to us as friends. We are here for you. You don't have to explain, we understand.