Hi Dealingwithtos,
Yes I Feel The Same Way, And Sometimes I Hear The 'i Hate Doing This' In My Husband's Voice And It Makes It Worse. We Have To Let Go Of So Much Because Of The Disabling Aspects Of This Problem. And What We Do Manage To Do We Need To Do In Increments.
I Would Think The Studdering And Mamory Are Related To The Meds Although I Do Not Know What You Are On. Do You Research Your Meds? You Should. Doctors Don't Always Know All The Side Effects Of Things.
I Try Very Hard To Stay Positive. I Go To Therapy. I Take Vitamins And I Have Lost Weight, And Eat Healthy. I Do What I Can, And I Rest When I Need To. It Is Hard To Do All This Because People Sometimes 'expect' More Than We Can Give, And We Can Also 'expect' More That We Are Capable Of.
Don't Be So Hard On Yourself. You Did Not Ask For This. It Is Just A Fact, You Have It.
Please Do Something You Like Today ... I Try To Do That Every Day, Just One Thing That I Like That Is Just For Me, Sew, Garden, Crochet, Read, Play With The Cats, See The Grandchildren ... Things I Love. Or Just Come On Here And Chat.
There Is No Cure, And People Get Frustrated, But We Can Help Just Be Being Present Here And Showing Each Other How We Cope.
Joan