I probably should be on anti-depressants. Ive been so, so, so, so, so depressed lately. I dont feel like Im rested either. I try and sleep maybe 6 1/2 hours a day, but Ive had to increase it and it doesnt seem like I'm waking up refreshed.

I have work in an hour. What's strange is, without fail, before work my symptoms start to really get aggravated. By the time I actually get into work, my arm is burning like crazy, my back hurts like crazy and I feel like I can barely breath. I just started this job only 2 weeks ago and everyday has been worse and worse. Thankfully I'm not working in front of a computer, but actually selling computers.

The combination of mental and physical pain feels almost too much to bare. I'm not a very strong person. I break pretty easily. Ive always been kind of frail. There are some days where my options feel pretty limited. Sigh.