Dear Bobby,

I'm trying to picture how much freezer space 5 lbs of frozen hamburger would take up. And it would be a lot to carry too.

Thanks for your note.



Sleep. Sleep. Sleep. I will do that
I feel like you are giving me permission.
It's weird but sleep is tied up with so many emotions -- like remembering being accused of laziness by my mom if I took a nap or slept in when I was a teenager.

When I was in hs we lived in a very small town near a mental hospital. She used to say that she could have handled having a child with a physical disability but never with a mental disability. She thanked G_d that she did not have a mentallly ill child.
But then she was not far from being in that hospital herself. When we did something that threw her into anxiety, she would say that we were trying to send her to that hospital.

Do you know what else will annoy them? For a few weeks I have been on a vegan diet. So when we go to a restaurant, I will order whatever is plant based. I'll manage. They (mostly Dad) get annoyed by people who have special dietary needs even though they themselves are very concerned about their own food. And it's not like my diet is going to inconvenience them in anyway.


OK. I'm done talking about them. Done. Done. Done.
I sound whiny.

Thanks for your reminders. I have to sleep. They can do whatever they need to do while they are here.

I will stay focused on keeping myself together and keeping hubby happy. That I can do.
Any other stuff is beyond me right now.


Mari