for understanding Barb. I have been on Cymbalta for over 2 years and it works well for me. But I have my days, as we all do. I too have been suffering from depression for a long time. It has been at least 20 years, but mine started as a child, as did my many suicide attempts.

I guess what really has me today is the fact that my house is so "not my house". I, the person I really am, would not let it get this bad. When I asked my husband why he didn't tell me that the house was this bad, he said "well you always say the house needs cleaned, it's a mess, so I thought you knew". I explained to him that that meant the usual cleaning of the house, not the baseboards, walls, windows, etc. I explained to him that depressed people only can see so much, at least in my case. I don't look at what my house looks like on a daily basis. I only did today because I seem to be feeling better since they have a control on my migraines, seizures, fibro, still working on CFS and "probable MS". But I haven't felt this good for years. Until I looked at my house of course. My DH is very understanding and he (like most who don't experience depression) just needs to be told how we see things. Once told, he helps me. Today of course he had to go to work and I was left alone thinking I had to take on this big task and it just overwhelmed.

Have I done anything about it yet? Nope. I just stare at my kitchen walls and floor and cry. I see the clothes in the laundry basket that need folded and iron and I walk past them.

I will hope for a better day tomorrow...

M