Hi all,

My friend Doug I am thinking could go very soon. I really didn't expect him to make it to the weekend but knowing how much of a fighter he is he may just last. He's been doing a whole lot of sleeping and also having lots of company so I've had a lot of free time on my hands now. It helps when I'm not with him a lot and watching him suffer which hurts me. It gives me some denial of what is happening when I'm not staring his death right in sight. Although on the other hand, I think I have accepted him dying. I know though when the time comes and he is called home that it's still going to hurt a lot.

befuddled2