Liberated, what an awsome word. I am free If only I had a clue what was next. No sense in guessing, I'm not good at that. I will just keep my thoughts positive and see what life has in store.

I wish it were 3 weeks from now and I could be almost in OH. He is hurting me with his words during our "discussions" today. I'm exhausted but sure am not looking forward to sleeping in the same bed. He is so hurt and I just make things worse trying to tell him anything.

He wants to know why I won't try. I have nothing to say and he keeps telling me I'm giving up with out trying. I should never have come out here and wasted 2 years of his life.

I got a lot of personal growth with this experience but at his expense apparently. Selfish he says it is, but was was I to do, I wanted to give it a shot. I guess that's the problem with meeting online. You know a person to be a certain way, only from their words written and over the phone. The real test is the in person day to day stuff. Big life lesson there.

Thanks to everyone for the support and encouragement. I'm sure I'll be borrowing some more of it for a while. Not to worry though, I'm here for you too.