Thanks ladies. I know that I shouldn't be posting here anymore, so appreciate your many kindnesses.

I will talk to the gastro this week, but I don't think that I can go through it again. I mean, I could walk through fire for my kids and husband, but get me in a hospital and I am scared beyond belief. From the rooms, the meds, the separation and the distrust. I trust no one in the hospital. No one. I admire all of you folks who can do what you need to do.

mama