Hi guys,

Thanks for all the wonderful Birthday wishes! Well, a full week later the doctor responded to my email letting me know that my shoulder is fine. I can't believe that it takes a doctor an entire SEVEN days to view X-rays on a shoulder to let you know that it is fine, AND you have to call him to get the results! Well, if you are a Californian, you would understand "Kaiser-Permanente".

I also wanted to throw in a "brag" about my daughter... the 23 year old. Remember the one that was out on the streets using drugs and I was afraid for her life a few years ago? Well, now she has turned into Martha Stewart! (Without the ankle bracelet!) She has more tattoos than Martha, but her apartment and her life are soooo cute now! She has been clean for over a year now, she is engaged to a really wonderful guy. They have custody of his little five year old girl, and my daughter has decorated their apartment to look like a home in a magazine! The little girls bedroom is adorable, all Tinkerbell Fairies, I helped her paint the walls, two toned green and lavender, she put up adorable decorations on the walls, got the cutest furniture, and she cooks for her boyfriend breakfast and dinner every day, she takes her step-daughter to school and picks her up, does her homework with her, takes her to the pool in the afternoon, gives her a shower at night... WOW! I'm so incredibly proud of her!

Anyway, back to the docs... I've seen the specialists, had all the tests done, nothing shows up as "significant" no diabetes, no thyroid, nothing that is causing the PN... just plain old Idiopathic Hereditary Small Fiber Peripheral Neuropathy... the doc says "lets try some other medications" and sends me home!

I really feel like another "number" in the system, and like they could care less about making me feel better, or getting help for me! I am beginning to feel as if they don't believe me! Like they just are "placating" me to shut me up... you know in these big HMO's they only have so much time per patient, and their job is to get you in and out as quickly as possible!

When they pull up the screen with my record on it, there is a list of medications over a page long.... and I'm only taking one of those medications! What's up?

I'm just ranting today, feeling pretty frustrated with this whole system... I get to change insurance plans soon and believe me, I'm changing!

Can't sleep because my shoulder hurts every night, I'm crabby, hot and tired!